This is sad really, but death isn't something we should be ever afraid of because whether we like it or not, it awaits us all, death is like someone changing old clothes for new one, it's a transition from this very world we live in into another world, and what ever that world looks or feels like, we don't know, and can never know until we get in there, my prayer always is that we all live long life in good health and depart peacefully without stress or putting our families in any financial difficulties when it's time to go...
I pray for you brother, I don't know the religion you believe in, but God is real and He's able to heal what ever kind of chronic illness you are suffering from if only you will believe, I don't also know how old you are, but I pray His will alone be done in your life, if it is not His will for you to die now, believe that He will make a way for you to live much longer than you expect.
All the best brother, God be with you always..
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And concerning your account, please don't delete, it's a bad idea, the admin can lock it instead and apply a special tag to it whenever you are ready to stop accessing the forum through this account.